We all wanna be good Mamas, in fact, we want to be the absolute best! And we think we’re doing okay and then BAM! MOM GUILT! I had one of those moments this weekend.
Clint had gone to the gym and Lucas and I were home alone. Lucas was in the Living Room wreaking havoc and I was folding laundry in the Laundry Room. I walked through with some clothes to put up and he whined and wanted me to pick him up. That made me wonder what time it was and how much longer it would be before he was ready for bed, so I could get some stuff done around the house. I feel mom guilt just admitting that to y’all.
I went and hung the clothes up and the guilt hit me. What is so important in this house that I can’t sit down and play with him for a little while? Then, I had another thought. Here I am wanting to be a SAHM and homeschooling him once he reaches school age, but I barely spend any time teaching him new things now. Clint or Clint’s parents generally teach Lucas new things. I’m usually running around the house doing dishes, cleaning, or cooking dinner while Clint is playing with Lucas. Isn’t that terrible?
I have to change this. Lucas isn’t going to remember whether or not the house was clean and we had a home-cooked meal every night, he’s going to remember the time that Mama spent with him. I can’t wait until I’m able to stay home, if it ever happens, to spend time with my child.
Okay, sorry, the pity party has <ended>. I have been getting up an hour earlier in the mornings to work on blog stuff, which I plan to continue doing. Starting this week, I’m getting back into meal planning and freezer cooking (post on both of those in the works) so dinner will not be so hectic and take so long. Once we eat dinner and clean up, I am going to spend time with Lucas until he goes to bed. That will leave me with an hour or two to try and get household things done. If things don’t get done, then they don’t get done. My relationship with my child is more important than laundry anyhow.